I going to say something, I don't like complaining of personal matters of how I really feel, and I know NO ONE knew how I was starting to feel I was starting to feel angry and I started to secretly hate my family, I started to hate drawling and that's why I stopped, every time I talked with my parents we get in an argument it seemed, I realized how no really supported me in the arts and every time I can up with something it yeah, cool, now go away I'm watching TV, and hearing about the economy and how it's harder to get a job now, and how I am today will have a big impact on how I am later down in life, which ain't good.
And my sister, no more will understand this unless they have an annoying sibling, how kids are today most don't understand limits, or manners and shes acting like most preppy stuck up kids, I many complaints on her but I'll skip that, lets just say I was starting to hate more then I use to, I was wishing some things I really should not, I just didn't want to talk to anyone anymore, I didn't want to see my family anymore I was just wishing I could slip though thin air and not me noticed, and then I ask my mom and dad if I could live with my grand parents, that was a no. So I asked if I could stay there for all summer they said yes to that, I love my grand parents, so I stayed there so far 1 and a half months so far, while they I become more active and I started to draw a little more now in a whole different style then before, and you know I've realized how much I love my parents while away, and how much I missed my sister and brother, oh and Pepsi, Rosco and Trooper. But the time alone has gave me so much freedom in my mind and gave my brain oxygen to breath and relax a little,and then I came home today for a Get-Together from my mom side of the family, I had way more fun then I could ever imagine, and that made me realize I love family and friends, but I also love a breaks and alone time and I think that was what was going on I was never getting a break. I really am looking forward into things now, I made a goal list, which they are REALLY simple but their meaningful.
Right now I'm tired out and my voice hurts from yelling and talking, the fire works were awesome, some still going on, the food was awesome even though at this moment my dads throwing a little fit that he never got to eat a hamburger.
I am truly in a way better mood then I have been for a very very long time. I'm also impressed with my aim in hitting my dad in the butt with a water balloon!
I will return 7/10/2012. (of course)